single? i wish it wasn't real
My birthday was fun. Mostly it seems like it was a lie though. I thought I got everything I wanted. I was spoiled as can be. Until the 27th...Gary broke up with me. I can't seem to stop crying. I've never gone thru a real breakup before. I can't eat or sleep properly. I never want to get out of bed. I feel sick to my stomach. But I can't seem to get angry. I don't want to be mad. I don't want to hate him. I might still be in shock. I just can't believe that I had such a great weekend the week before, and now this. It's like in 3 days he turned into a completely different person. And doesn't love me anymore. Or thats how it feels. It would make more sense to me if we had been fighting...but we hadn't. I don't know what else to say. I wish there were white lies that people could tell me. False hope even. Just so that I wouldn't have to deal with the awful truth of things. Just so I could temporarily feel better. I know it's not going to happen. So much stuff to pack up. So many things to go over. So much has happened, and so much won't happen. 5 years is a long time...but not long enough. I still want more.
posted by FaeLace @ 12:03
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