Lucky Star

met someone

I met someone.

I don't want to jinx it so I'm not going to write about him in here yet. We have a date tonite. I'll explain more later.

I hope it goes good...

posted by FaeLace @ 18:52 3 comments

Blog Therapy

Blog Therapy.

List ten things you want to say to ten people you know, but never will for whatever reason. Don't say who they are. (Duh.) Use each person only once and only use one sentence.

1)Why do you give a shit what I do & who I do it with. It's none of your business.
2)You are the only person I will ever trust.
3)Sometimes, you make me feel like I'm wasting my time.
4)I can't be with you, but I don't want you be with her either.
5)If I could change one thing about you...I'd just change you.
6)You deserve better.
7)When you're not around, I complain about you to everyone.
8)I wish I wanted to be with you, like you want to be with me.
9)You're just like your dad.
10)I think someday you'll regret a lot of things.

Wow, that was nice to do. I think everyone should do it.

posted by FaeLace @ 20:54 1 comments

hurts so bad

Should I really be doing this? Everyone's saying he's getting the best of both worlds, me still doing everything with/for him, and being able to see other girls. At the same time, it's me getting what I want, but it can't be helping me, can it. Everytime i hear of someone else, it hurts. It shouldn't hurt this bad if I don't want to be with him, right? I am in so much conflict with myself right now about what i need/want to do. Of course I want him to be happy. Maybe just not so soon. I dunno. All I know is that I'm getting hurt in the process. Feels like all over again.

posted by FaeLace @ 07:36 0 comments

hate these feelings

Is it true...does a girl take the amount of years she was dating a guy and need that many months to get over him? Because it sure feels like I never will. Strange thing is, I don't know how much I really want to. Except that it would hurt less if I could. I sometimes wish I had someone to use to get over him, but at the same time I don't want that. I'm not sure what I want. All I know is that somedays it hurts so bad that I can hardly handle it, and other days I'm completely satisfied with where I am in my life. Maybe once winter is over I'll feel better. It's just so depressing.

posted by FaeLace @ 07:53 0 comments

personalized

Disclaimer : Very Personal Post.

I hate myself for feeling this way. I LIKE the you treated me when we were dating. I LOVE the way you treat me now. I don't want to be with you. I'm sorry. I don't want to lose the things you say to me, or the things you do. It feels like you only said them before because you HAD to. And now, it's because you mean it. I like having you with no commitment. I know that makes me a bad person. I can't change how I feel. Don't ever think that I don't want you, or don't Love you. Of course I do. Nothing will change that. I just can't lose myself again. I can't have habit with you.

I hope you understand how I feel, and don't hate me for it. I already hate myself enough for the both of us.

Please:
Don't change for anyone. Continue to treat me how you are treating me. Don't tell lies, I can handle the truth. Don't keep secrets. Stay the same. Be yourself. Love me forever...

You're still my hero.

posted by FaeLace @ 14:17 0 comments

new cd help

I need to make a new cd...something fun & bubbly...possibly breakup & I'll be ok songs. Please put in the comments any suggestions that you have for me. Old or New songs...ask your friends too, and see if they have any suggestions. Let me know! Thanks!

posted by FaeLace @ 13:23 2 comments

i want friends

Did i ever mention that I HATE winter? And not because of the snow. I hate it because I get depressed. I'm to the point where I feel like I have no friends. I just need to be doing something all the time. Please, if anyone know of anyway to keep me occupied, let me know. Even if you're a complete stranger reading this, and you want to go for coffee or something...PLEASE tell me. I need to get out!

posted by FaeLace @ 20:17 0 comments